This week felt like walking through mud every damn day. Couldn’t focus, snapped at the dog, yelled at a telemarketer… my wife finally said, “Seriously, go look up that mood stuff online.” Figured why not, right? Just a quick thing.
How I Found The Thing
Hopped on my phone while waiting for coffee. Typed “why do I feel like crap then totally fine” – yeah, eloquent, I know. Saw “Emotional Dysregulation Test” pop up. Clicked the first thing that didn’t look like a full-on therapy session.
What The Test Actually Did
Took maybe 15 minutes, tops. Questions were weirdly basic but kinda sharp. Stuff like:
- “Think about the last time you yelled. How quick did that hit you?” (Immediately, duh. Coffee spilled everywhere.)
- “Do small things mess up your whole mood?” (Lost my keys Tuesday. Ruined the afternoon.)
- “Feel embarrassed after cooling down?” (Every. Single. Time.)
Had these slider bars for answers. None of that “agree/disagree” crap. Felt less like a test, more like poking bruises.
The Not-So-Surprising Result
Big fat “Strong Symptoms. Seek Support.” No fancy charts, just a red box blinking at me. Scored high on the “intense reactions” and “mood swings” sections. The “difficulty calming down” one? Maxed out. Felt like getting a parking ticket you saw coming.
Why It Hit Different This Time
I’ve seen “talk to someone” online before. Rolled my eyes. This? Listened because it pointed straight to my Monday. Screamed at the printer jamming? Check. Cried over a canceled TV show? Oh yeah. Got weirdly quiet when frustrated? My wife nodded reading over my shoulder. Made it real.
Where This Leaves Me
Am I rushing to book therapy? Nope. But damn. Made me see the pattern. Small crap = big feelings, fast. Takes ages to chill. Wasted cash on stupid impulse buys after arguments? Signing off. Maybe… maybe my wife’s right. Might actually google local support groups tomorrow. Small step.
Point is: Free 15-minute test. Annoyingly accurate. Like a mirror showing your messy hair you ignored. Now I gotta decide if I just keep ignoring it.